is there really a difference? are they two sides of the same coin? if it were just a matter of telling myself to sit down and get it done, well that’d be one thing, but i HAVE to contemplate every decision, and weigh the pros and cons, and calculate how that action will impact this other thing, and what if this? or heaven forbid that? by the time i’ve done all of that prepatory work, there’s no energy left for the simple straight forward task. all the while there’s a part of myself standing on the sideline watching, thinking, for fuck’s sake get going! it’s gonna be a long day.
