it’s probably too soon to really say anything about the shooting of dr tiller. when you see pictures of the moments of other assasinations, so many of them are in black and white. that is so befitting the mood. it feels wrong to be reading about this horribleness while the sun is shining and i [...]
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nothing good ever comes from hate
Posted in Uncategorized on May 31, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
osho
Posted in Uncategorized on April 14, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“suffering is not holding you.
you are holding suffering.
when you become good at the art of letting suffering go, then you come to realize how unnecessary it was for you to drag those burdens around with you.
you’ll see that no one else other than you was responsible.
the truth is that existance wants your life to be [...]
doing it again
Posted in Uncategorized on April 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
oh for god’s sake. there i am doing it again. the self sabotage that maintains the damaged facade and keeps me from really having relationships. why can’t i just allow it to be good? or bad even, but just let myself feel safe enough to try. how do i know that either of them is [...]
so frustrating
Posted in Uncategorized on March 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
i got involved with this fiber artists for obama group last summer. a bunch of us sent in blocks and a little money, and together we created an awesome, beautiful quilt for the campaign. and it was good and fine and i figured it would just be a short term thing.
but, it’s quasu continued on [...]
so far, so good
Posted in Uncategorized on March 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
i’m on call for jury duty. part of me thinks this would be a really interesting experience if it wasn’t so inconvenient right now. then there is the part of me that recognizes how difficult it is for me to make decisions that for the most part only affect me. i can agonize and agonize [...]
every once in a while
Posted in Uncategorized on February 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
i ponder whether or not i should have settled down and had a husband and a family. but when i go through these melancholy patches, and have sooo much anxiety over what my logical mind sees is really nothing too major, but my emotional mind is completely overtaken, and i write in terribly composed run-on [...]
really
Posted in day to day, memorial project, old shit on February 24, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
it seems like this place has gotten a little melodramatic as of late and i guess i’m going to decide to be okay with that. normally in life i would force myself to shift gears and sing and dance and fight a way to be entertaining. but, i feel like i am always, “on.” i [...]
too much
Posted in day to day, memorial project, old shit on February 23, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
it’s just too much. i thought i could do this and learn some new skills, skills i really need to learn, but maybe not with this project. maybe with this project i’m supposed to learn to ask for help. it was easy enough to get people to help with making blocks, well, kind of easy. [...]
avoid much?
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged iraq war memorial, project improv, quilt on February 14, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I so did not want to do what really needed to be done today. I have huge issues with pr type stuff. Something about it feels bragadocious and boastful. I know that it really isn’t, and no one is ever going to know about this war project if I don’t get out and tell them, [...]
HeadButt
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged autism, drama, head butt on February 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
One word or two for that phenomena? I have such a headache now. I know he didn’t do it on purpose, and it wasn’t a misjudgement on our (the Special Ed Para Professionals whose care he was in) part, it’s just comes with the territory. You think you made some progress in your work, and [...]
